Sunday, 3 February 2013


Wanderlust lives in my bones, the way Winter does, and words. It’s a quiet kind of ache, usually, a sweet sort of pain. But there are times – and today is one of them – when it becomes a pressing need, and I burn with longing. I keep thinking Paris, I keep thinking leave. I itch for a suitcase fatly packed with clothes. I yearn for the tidy order of  departure: the stamp in the passport, the buckling in, and then the peanuts and the tiny wine bottle, and the streams of cloud at the round window.

I’ve been to Paris three times in the last eighteen months. Part of me thinks that with so many countries and cities on my wishlist, I should go somewhere new before going back there again. But just thinking of it makes my heart lift.

It’s hard to explain why I love it so much. It’s not just one thing, it’s everything. It’s the food, and the brusque poetry of the accent, and the windows piled with tiers of macaroons and expensive silks. It’s the clean white apartment buildings with slanting tile roofs and painted shutters and flowers brimming from the ledges. It’s the high, tight streets of Montmartre, and the painters in the parks, and the fact that everyone, but everyone, carries a fresh baguette in a brown paper bag. It’s the Eiffel Tower in her elegant supermodel poise; the way she glitters at night like a hundred thousand stars brought to a single point.

It’s the only place in the world where I feel like I’m in the right place at the right time all the time.

Perhaps wanderlust is the wrong word for what I feel today. Homesickness would maybe be more precise. A desperate wish to return to the place where I fit so perfectly. Where every cell of my body hums at the same exquisite frequency, right along with the singular music of the language.

There will be other days for those beautiful white beaches brushed by palm trees. Those flaring ribbons of Northern light. There will be other times for the roundly-smiling golden Buddhas and the emerald temples with fabulous spires.
The heart wants what the heart wants. And right now, this heart wants Paris.  



  1. Cheryl, I understand the feeling - I am completely in love with Paris, always have been, always will be!

    I love the whole ambience of the city, how it's like no other; and the art and the poetry that go with it, and how the whole city seems like a black and white vintage portrait, and as Gil said in the film 'Midnight in Paris' - 'to just think that Paris exists...' Yes, even the name of it sparkles and glitters just like the Eiffel Tower....Ahh

    Paris is my favourite place in the whole world! But, I've never been able to properly write about it - I'm afraid that I won't be able to do it justice, but you did so here and captured its magic in your wonderful writing.


  2. Always go (when you can) especially if it's what your heart longs for.
    Loved Paris, I do wish to go back someday! Though it does not have the belonging feel to me, as it does with you. That is a beautiful thing to find.
    Much love xx

  3. Siobhan, Siobhan! Yes, and yes. And yes yes. I can't describe the place to someone who has never been, although I'd love to. I can't make the magic happen. But if you HAVE been, then you know. You know.

    Thank you always for your wonderful comments. And also, know that your mention of 'Midnight in Paris' has kept me up past my bedtime tonight as I watched for the millionth time...! xxx

  4. Melrose - I have spent the better part of the last few days looking at flights and apartments, so hopefully, crossed fingers, Paris will be in my immediate future! I think everyone has a heart-place, it's just a matter of finding it.

    Thank you for taking the time to comment, it's always appreciated xxx

  5. Your words are like medicine for the soul <3